Theoretically the Oldest

My older brother drives me insane. His mentality is sickening. Is it right that he comes to me, his 16 year old sister for money and a ride because he doesn't have his own or he's out of gas and can't pay for more? No it's not right. I'm four years younger. I shouldn't have to act like his older sibling when I'm so much younger than he.

Today he set me over the edge. It was a hot pocket. I bought a box yesterday. I planned on having one for lunch today. I went downstairs and smelled something too familiar.....a cooked hot pocket. I went to the freezer...no box. My sisters didn't eat it. My mom didn't eat it. My dad is playing golf.....so I stormed down the stairs pounded on his basement-bedroom door and asked him if he ate it. BINGO!! There he was. Sitting, enjoying MY hot pocket. I can live without hot pockets...what set me off was that he didn't even bother to ask if he could eat it. He knows that my parents don't buy them. He knows that it wasn't his. There must have been something inside his head saying, "That might be Anna's....should you eat it.....??" but he went ahead and took it.

He buys his own frozen pizzas and Velveeta macaroni and cheese dinners.....why couldn't he have had one of those?! I asked him. "I finished them last night," he said. Last night....or this morning....at 2 FRICKIN A.M.! It's wrong.

I HATE having to act like the oldest. True, I am the oldest girl, but really?! Must I act the the oldest even when he's around? I'm worried that when I'm in my late 20s and early 30s trying to settle down with my life, he's going to barge in and need a large sum of money or a place to stay because he's not doing anything with his life. And I'll be too nice to say no. This must stop. He needs to get on with his life and make something of it. I won't do it for him. I will not make the mistakes he is making. I'm going to learn from them, something he can't or just won't do.

I'm sure I'm not the first girl in the world to have a defective older brother. And I sure as hell won't be the last. So here's to 2 years from now....I'll be in college living in a dorm and he'll probably still be here. And when that hits him, it'll hit him hard and he'll feel like crap for not doing all he should have when he got the chance. I am theoretically the oldest, so I have an example to set for my sisters...and my older brother.


My Feet

About 2 seconds after I posted last night, I realized that the title of the post, "19 Minutes" is also the title of the book I'm currently reading. It's by Jodi Picoult. It's a very good book...and I haven't even gotten that far yet......
....okay....I seriously want to go see INCEPTION again. That movie is definitely my favorite.

Mosquitoes bother me. They don't tend to bite me...when I have shoes on....however when my poor, size-9 feet are naked and exposed, then cometh the mosquitoes....I have about 5 bites on each of my feet. Including the bottom. Here's a piece of advice: Don't go to the drive-in and let your bare feet hang out of the car. That's how I'm guessing I got them. It's pure misery.

Alright....well that's all for now.


19 Minutes

It won't be 11:11 when I post this, but it is when I started writing. Make a wish.

Christopher Nolan's "Inception" was amazing. It lived up to every single expectation I had and surpassed most of them as well. In other words, it kicked cinematic butt. If and when you go see it, don't see it alone. No, it's not scary. You'll just need someone to talk to about it when it's over. 11:13. The movie was about dreams. It was fascinating. After I got home and went to bed, I thought to myself "Okay. I have to remember my dream tonight. Especially. I want to figure out if it's in any way similar to what they talked about in the movie." 11:14. Now I'm going to talk about the actors.

Leonardo "Leo" DiCaprio as Dom Cobb. He is a very privileged actor. He's had the chance to work with some of the world's best directors. 11:15. James Cameron, Martin Scorsese, Christopher Nolan.......the list goes on. He pulled off his role amazingly. 11:16.

Joseph Gordon-Levitt, the actor we know as Tommy from 3rd Rock From the Sun, is now much older, much more mature, and playing the type of role that we've never seen him do before. 11:17. He made my jaw drop. He was surprisingly fantastic.

Ellen Page, one of my favorite actresses, (11:18) played Ariadne, the Architecture student who gets involved with Dream-sharing and finds it captivating...much like I did. She should receive the Oscar nomination for Best Supporting Actress. No joke. 11:19.

Tom Hardy, who I had never heard of before seeing INCEPTION, was a really good actor....and he's not too bad looking...and I tend to have a bias towards men with accents. He's british. I rest my case. 11:20. He played the "forger". In dreams, he can change his voice and appearance to fool the subjects of the dream. He was quick-witted and quite the charming character. I hope to see Hardy in larger roles in the future.


Others in the cast included Michael Caine (A Chris Nolan film regular), Ken Watanabe, Cillian Murphy, and Oscar-winning actress Marion Cotillard for her role in "La Vie en Rose: The Life of Edith Piaf". 11:22. They, too, were all quite amazing.

11:23...Already? How the time flies!

Now I'm waiting for Craig Ferguson.....he is my last laugh before bed.

The laugh will be good, especially tonight. 11:24. Earlier today, I found out that one of my mom's students died in a car accident. She was a twin and I can't even imagine the pure hell her sister must be going through. I met her and her sister once. 11:25 They came over to our house during a storm because their apartment building didn't have a basement. I now remember that she talked about getting ready to graduate...she was a year away....but she didn't make it. 11:26. How tragic. That made me realize that everything could end in a split second. She died instantly from her injuries. 11:27. I would say that makes me afraid to drive, but if I never drive or ride in a car again, I won't have much of a life, will I? 11:28.....11:29......11:30......time is flying by, so we have to utilize it to the best of our abilities.

Take it away, Craig....make me laugh.



All summer, I have been watching the greatest drama TV show to ever have aired: ER. I seem to go through flukes of TV. I watch a bunch of medical shows, then legal shows, then reality shows, then high school teen flick shows, etc. But the best drama show I have ever watched is ER. (Maybe that's why it ran for 15 seasons.) I was almost a year old when it began. I was 15 when it ended. It was nominated for hundreds of Emmy's throughout it's run. It is an amazing show. Just watching it makes me feel so much smarter. It makes me want to be a doctor....or a nurse....someone in the medical profession.

Comedy shows are what get me though. You can ask me over and over which my favorite is and I won't be able to give you an answer. Gilmore Girls, Arrested Development, Glee, 30 Rock, The Office, Modern Family.......There are way too many to pick. I own the complete Gilmore Girls and Arrested Development series and every season of 30 Rock released so far. I'm waiting for Glee....and Modern Family.

Don't even get me started on those shows. I could talk forever!

.....I'm going to get started anyways. Gilmore Girls, as I think I've posted before, is a televised glory in a fast paced chick-flicky package. There's not one thing I don't like about that show.

Glee is like the reality of High School with the touch of musical we all love deep down inside. When I talk about it, I see guys roll their eyes and scoff, but I know they're just hiding their inner gay thinking, "Oh my God!! I totally looove that show!" (I'm listening to the Glee soundtrack while typing this. It's sooooo goood!) Lea Michele should have been famous a long time ago. And lemme tell you, the guys in that show are HOT! Plus, they can sing which is so sexy!

30 Rock is probably the funniest comedy I've ever seen. Tina Fey is my idol. She is beautiful, smart, and talented. If I could grow up to be any celebrity it would be her. Hands down. Alec Baldwin is perfect for that show. He delivers his lines in the perfect dead-pan way. Tracy Morgan, in any other setting, would annoy the ever living out of me, but in 30 Rock he just makes me laugh. The actors and actor/writers who play the writing staff of TGS round out the show: Toofer, Lutz, and Frank are the perfect trio: The smart, Ivy-Leaguer with an attitude, the lazy foodie, and the unhygienic, childish pervert.

Arrested Development (2003-2006) only ran for 3 seasons. Not because it was a bad show, rather because Mitch Hurwitz, the creator, didn't feel like is was it's best as a series. A movie is scheduled to come out in 2011. I can't wait. It has the perfect cast:
Jason Bateman as Michael Bluth, the CEO of his recently imprisoned father's home model company.
Michael Cera (yes, Paulie from Juno) as George Michael Bluth, Michael's socially awkward child.
Portia DeRossi as Lindsay Bluth-Funke, Michael's gold-digging, vain twin sister.
David Cross as Tobias Funke, Lindsay's career-confused husband.
Alia Shawkat as Maebey Funke, Linday and Tobias's rebellious, neglected daughter.
George Oscar "GOB" Bluth, Michael's older brother aspiring to be a main-stream magician.
Tony Hale as Buster Bluth, Michael's still-living-at-home/mama's-boy younger brother.
Jeffrey Tambor as George Bluth, the owner of Bluth Homes and Michael's imprisoned father.
Jessica Walters as Lucille Bluth, George's alcohol-depended wife, and vain, cold mother of Michael and his siblings.

The Office and Modern Family: The mockumentary comedies about the employees of Dunder-Mifflin Paper Company and the antics of an extended family, respectively.

I hope you watch at least one of these amazing shows I've listed. If not, you're missing out. Believe me.


The Giant Void.

"The truth is no one knows about me. I feel like I'm just sending things into this giant void."

Do you know what movie that quote is from? It's from the movie that made me want to start blogging: Julie & Julia.

Julie Powell needed something to keep her motivated. She said that she never finished anything. I don't believe that finishing is always what's important. Succeeding is what's important. She succeeded with many, many things. She succeeded with cooking every recipe in "Mastering the Art of French Cooking" in 365 days. She succeeded with killing the lobsters. And she succeeded with making me want to blog.

I certainly realize that I don't have many readers. I mean, hello? 5 people have subscribed to my blog after 5 or so months. And most of them probably don't even read it. But I don't care. The fact that I can say something and hope that someone might be reading it is good enough for me.

So readers...if there are any of you...all I can say is how much I appreciate your time.

Keep reading. Keep Dreaming. Keep succeeding. Keep having faith in the giant void.


July Post a.k.a. Love

Clever title, huh? It's been over a month since I've posted last, so I felt obligated to post again.

Dreams are funny things, huh? Sometimes you want to tell everyone about your dream because it was so cool, but other times you feel almost embarrassed to have a had a particular dream. That happens to me sometimes. I feel like I have to defend myself before telling people any of those particular dreams, telling them, "I can't help what I dream about and I wasn't even thinking about that before bed." And it's true. A lot of times I don't. Usually the embarrassment pertains to WHO is in my dream. I think it's probably the same for a lot of people. Anyways....

The other day, I read a question: "I love blind?" So I thought about it....Is love blind?....I don't think so. To answer this question, you need to know what "love" is and it's stipulations.

In this culture, we use that word too much. "I love my shoes." "I love my dog." "I love 'Glee'." "I love Robert Downey Jr." "I love my parents." "I love God." These all imply different things. Would you die for your shoes? Would you die before missing the next episode of "Glee" on TV? Would you die for your dog?......on a different scale: Would you die for your parents or siblings? Would you die for God? The meaning of love is put into perspective when you think about it that way.

Here was my answer to the question though: Love isn't blind. Infatuation is. When you really love someone, you see every flaw and every perfection that they have, and you love them despite. When you're infatuated with someone, you only see the perfections and you deny the flaws. See the difference?

(I just added the "a.k.a. Love" to the title. Not that you needed to know that...)