Have You Ever Turned a Table?

Oh, how they have turned. The tables, I mean. Supposedly, (meaning I don't know if it's true), some of my friends are convinced that the guy I just got over likes me now. If I'm talking to another guy, he apparently glares at the guy. Also, after class one time, I was walking next to my self-claimed twin (shoutout to Nick!) and we were pushing each other while laughing and joking and whatnot. My other friend said she turned towards me just enough to see "Buddy" glaring at Nick.....she said he looked jealous. You know what I think? haha. He might know just a little bit how I felt. Should I give him another chance? Only if he asks. The ball's in his court.

Good things:
I painted my room! It looks great! It was a good change.
I invested in The Fame Monster by Lady Gaga. Good investment? Well, i'm putting it under "good things," so I'll let you draw your own conclusions.
(Did I mention I'm over "Buddy"? haha. I know I did. Dur-duh-dur. I just like being able to say it.)
I got a peach tea at Sonic Happy Hour. It made me happy. Mission completed, Sonic. ;)

Bad Things:
I won't be able to manage softball this spring like I was hoping to. Instead, I'll be photographing various spring sports and activities. My first two? Boys' Golf and my school's production of Les Miserables.

I hate that I've been running out of things to say lately. I feel awful about it, because it makes me forget to post. My goal is to do at least one a week, but I apologize in advance if I fail at that.

Hey! Here's something fun for you to do! How bout (if you want) comment with a list of the good and bad things in your life right now. It'll help you realize how great your life really is...If you think hard, your good things should outweigh your bad. If they don't, I'm sorry that your life sucks that bad.



I'm getting ready to paint my room. A new color. A new attitude. Old Hollywood theme: Tan walls, deep red accents, with a nice touch of black and white here and there. I think it'll look pretty good. Sometimes I wish I could paint over certain parts of my life--cover them up so I never have to see them again. The car accident. The rejection. The heartache.

There's only one problem: when you cover up or shut out bad things, you lose some good. If I block out the car accident, I forget how bad it was and why I'm never going to let it happen again. If I block out the rejection, I forget how much fun I had with my friends that night (without alcohol, drugs, or partying, I might add), and how I was able to put myself outside of my comfort zone and take a risk. If I block out the heartache, I shrink, weaken, lose everything I gained by surviving the pain.

It's a win-lose situation.

I want so badly to be friends with him. We could be the great friends who go golfing together. Who make fun of the idiots at school. (I know, I know. So mean of me. Deal with it.) Who just hang out and have funny, interesting moments together. This is all probably sounding a bit cheesey, which just goes to show that I watch way too many teen-flick movies. I'm exhausted though! I either want him to say that we have no chance at a friendship or want him to just let us be friends. It's not like we actually dated or anything! Why is this so hard?!

Let's not be depressing anymore!! Smile time!

When I say this, know that I am not joking. I have just sat in the same spot for 15 minutes trying to think of something else to say, but I got nothing. So, on that note, I hope you have a good day full of smiles and uplifting things.


Spring Break

Good News: I'm positive that I'm over him! How do I know this? I sent out a mass text to my English class telling them that a reading assignment was postponed (in a way). He was one of three people to text back, and the other two were my best friends....anyways, when he texted back, we started talking, and I felt absolutely nothing. NOTHING! It was great. I do think, howwever, that we could be really good friends. If only he'll get to know me.

I love love love love love love sleeping in!!! And i'll get to every single day this week! WHO'S EXCITED?! I'M EXCITED!!!! hahahaha yeah! And i've been awfully giggly. And i'm pretty hyper, which is why you'll notice my grammar and punctuation S-U-C-K in this post! Pfft, my english teacher won't be reading this, so I don't care!

ROCK CHALK, JAYHAWK! KU beat Texas A&M last night. mwhahahaha! Stick that in your juice box and suck it, Mark Turgeon!! Kansas (including WSU) will always be better whether you like it or not!

But Notre Dame lost.... :(((( sad sad. Oh well, it happens.

Nothing much else to say! Have a fantastic Spring Break, everyone!



It's raining. I love the rain. It makes me feel at ease. When I was little, my mom always told me that the rain is God's tears. When it rains, I suppose I feel like God is crying my pain away. It feels really....comforting.

I was looking up at the sky and that put a lot into perspective: there are 6,000,000,000 people on this Earth. Why am I complaining about my problems? If there are that many people, then there are billions whose problems are much worse than mine. My major problems are my fault: boys (partially my fault), irritating people (my fault for finding them irritating), and school (my fault for signing up for all honors classes).

Addressing each:

Boys. I'm sad to say that a lot of my grief is because of boys. I hate that it is. While I was looking at the sky, it dawned on me: maybe the person I'm going to spend my life with is looking up at the sky too at this very moment. Maybe he's thinking the same thing I am right now. What if? How cool would that be?
Then, thinking that, I realized that I don't need to be accepted by everyone. And I sure as heck don't need to make (all) boys like me. Who cares if they do or not?! The person I'm going to spend the rest of my life with is out there somewhere, and he's going to accept me for everything I am and everything that I'm not. Take that, broken heart and mixed emotions!

Irritating people. I find a lot of people irritating. Obnoxious. Annoying. Whatever word you want to use, it's fine with me. I'm a relatively tolerant person. I easily find people to be annoying, BUT I put up with them. I don't tell them that they annoy me. I really need to work on that. Not telling people that they annoy me; rather, finding the good things about them instead of noticing only the annoying little habits.

School. I hate that word. The only reason I put up with going everyday is to get in to a good college *cough* Notre Dame *cough*, and it lets me see my friends on a regular basis, which is always nice. I have nothing else to say about school. The only way to eliminate this problem is to either drop out, or tolerate it until I graduate college. I'm going to have to tolerate it.

The rain is slowly coming to a halt. Maybe this means that tomorrow, my problems will be much less than they've ever been since God's washing them away. It's relieving.

But... it's late. And I should be going to bed. Keyword: should. Doesn't mean I'm going to. I'm going to let the sound of the rain lull me off to sleep while I think of only happy things.


The Oscars

My title for this particular post doesn't really have much meaning. I'm watching the Oscars as I'm writing this, but other than that, there's not significance to the title. I'll give this post a bit of a movie theme:

You know what's great? When you're such a great writer that your English teacher asks you if you had any help writing a paper. Yep. It happened to me. Here's a script:

Teacher: And, Anna! You had an amazing paper! It was almost perfect! Did you have any help writing that?
Me: No. I did it all by myself.... I wouldn't cheat.
Teacher: Are you in journalism?
Me: No.
Teacher: Well you're a very good natural writer. It's defnitely your forte.
Me: Well thank you. *smile*

It was hilarious and I felt amazing. I'm not in journalism. I'm in photography. That's a pretty big difference. However, I enjoy writing. I've had quite a few people tell me to take journalism, but I'm too lazy to take the class. If I could skip it and go straight to being a staffer, I would in a split second--without a doubt.

Mmmm.....what else...??

I can't think of very much. OH! *Movie critic attitude*

I saw Alice In Wonderland today. The visuals were fantastic, the acting was good, but the storyline was a bit dull. Throughout the movie, I kept thinking, "I swear I've seen this before," and then I realized: in a way, I have. It was very similar to the Chronicals of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe. They both contain a girl (or boys and girls) going to a fictional world that they don't recall ever going to before, but everyone knows who they are and have been waiting. They then befriend the enemy, betray the enemy, and fight... and win. It's all very similar. Tim Burton, however, is one of my favorite directors. His movies always captivate me. I'm sure it would've been much more visually appealing in 3-D. (I saw it in 2-D.) Overall, if I had to rate it using a grading scale, I'd give it a B. 'Nuff said.

I'm out of stuff to say for now. I'll keep you updated though. Good night, sleep tight, and keep viewing films, because they're the reason amazing things such as the Oscars exist.


Don't Worry, Be Happy.

I remember that in an earlier post, I had said that things were bad, but they would only get better from there. Good news: They got better.

The weather has been amazing!! It is 59 degrees out and beautiful! I'm loving it!

I can't help but smile right now. If you can tell me why, that would be great, but I don't care why. I'm happy. That's all that matters to me.

I'm not worrying about anything right now. Not "Buddy", not grades (I raised all but one to A's! This is amazing for me!), not anything! Life is blissful as of this moment.

I don't have a whole lot to talk about. I really don't. I feel bad about it too because this is the first time I've posted in a while, but you'll just have to smile and get over it ;)

I'm going to continue pursuing happiness this year. I hope you do too. Spring always seems to be my lucky season.